是否我已渐渐淡淡被遗忘了。
你的电话簿里没了我的名。
无情的雨把我俩的友亲都冲走了。
一点一滴得， 我俩的友谊冲走了。

我怀念的。。。。。。

我怀念的是你那灿烂的笑容。

我怀念的是你那善解人意的心。

我怀念的是你那分真诚。

我怀念的是你对生命的热成。

我怀念的是你对父母的孝心。

我怀念的是你对朋友的真情真意。

我怀念的是你对工作的责任。

我怀念的是你对爱情的狂热。

我怀念的是你的笑声。

我怀念的是你的风趣。

但除了怀念。。。还能做什么呢。。。。

恋爱第二则 - 失恋！

有些事，一辈子只有一次。
初恋也是。。


但原来失去初恋是那么伤人，比想象中还残酷。。


对爱情所包着的幻想，就像被刺爆的气球。


多年以后，伤口已成一道伤疤。。

隐藏在内心深处的那一道伤疤，包含着甜蜜的独家记忆。


在我人生的爱情篇里，初恋的你已永远占领者第一则。


你赢了。。。谢谢你。。。


人生本无常，失恋又何妨呢？

No matter - 妙手人心

Doesn’t matter whom you are with
Doesn’t matter where you are going
Don’t you know I’m still waiting here for you
And pray for you

In the sunny days, Sun will light your day
In the windy days, wind will leave your way.
I have to say, you’re my treasure moments
Never gonna walk away

In the rainy days, rains will share my tears
In the stormy days, storms will steal my pain
Just go your way and leave things all behind

Spread your wings and fly away
I’m pretending your mine I’m wishing you’ll be fine
The moments we share never die
You’ve made a difference to my life

My little tyrant...

As promised, here are the long awaited photos of my tyrant.


Wa... VERY good boy rite...



cos the next course is Ice-cream..


Hi everyone, "wu shui bo"...



Hah, the next "ang li gu ni" lady will be mi..


Ah pa, "wa wu yan dao mo"..
you dun wear, then i wear lor, "mai pa sing".





okie... my best posture....















hee, hee, hee









Kiss my 小弟弟 ....



see you again... did i make you smile? :)

恋爱第一则 - 初恋！

爱情反复就像心灵的一盏灯，照亮着我的生命。。。


希望生命中的每一分每一秒都与她度过。。



清晨增开眼睛，脑海中浮现出她那无限光芒的笑容。。


期待下一刻能与她相逢，脸上不由自如闪发出爱情的质润。。


额头反复写着。。。我是世上最幸福的人。。


遇见她的那一刻，周围的人在一瞬前消失了，眼里只有她。。


希望时光廷顿在这一秒，因为幸福就在这一秒。。


未来已不重要了。。 因为她就是未来。。



当初年少无知的你我，是否就是抱着如此的态度对待爱情呢？

下一则，失恋。。。



爱一个人是不需要理由的，那分离的时候为何要寻找理由呢。。。

摩羯座 （CAPRICORN）

12月22日～1月19日

星座特征

严谨刻板、稳重老成的星座。虽然一向给人呆板的印象，但是呆板的人普遍说来都不太耍花样；不管是在事业或爱情上，他们也都以这份特殊气质获胜！
摩羯座就像是只走在高山绝壁的山羊一样稳健踏实，会小心翼翼渡过困厄的处境。通常都很健壮，有过人的耐力、意志坚决、有时间观念、有责任感、重视权威和名声，对领导统御很有一套，自成一格，另外组织能力也不错。
和其它土象星座一样，是属于较内向，略带忧郁、内省、孤独、保守、怀旧、消极、没有安全感，也欠缺幽默感，常会装出高高在上或是严厉的姿态，以掩饰自己内在的脆弱。
通常他们也绝少是天才型，但是却心怀大志，经过重重的历炼，到中年期才会渐渐拥有声名和成功。一方面是因为他们有安定的向上心和坚强的毅力，加上擅长知识和经验的累积，如此才一点一滴的达成目标的。虽然有时为了这成功的目标，也会用一些残忍无情的策略，但摩羯座还算是有正义感的。他们擅于外交、好动、活力充沛、目标确定；重视现实利益及物质保障，具有宗教或神秘学上的理解能力及人文科学的逻辑概念，是属于大器晚成的类型。

性格代表词语：我作

守护星：土星（象征绝对的理性）

守护神：希腊－克罗诺斯　罗马－萨登

摩羯座的符号与象征意义

在十二星座中，摩羯座和射手座同属“非常态”的类型，射手是人头马，而摩羯座则是只有在希腊神话中才有的“海羊”——上半身是羊，下半身是蜷曲尾巴的鱼的变种山羊。所以和其它双重组合的星座——如二条鱼的双鱼、两个秤铊的天秤、半人半兽的射手一样，是复杂、矛盾的。
这符号前半的V表示山羊头，后半则是无法摆脱相连的鱼；象征着有山羊的毅力、刻苦耐劳的朝向更高层次，而内在的非理性情绪，也许是哲学性或潜在的感情部份，则要把另一半给留住。

星座爱情

摩羯座擅长伪装，即使遇上心仪的对象，也会严格控制浪漫的幻想力，以防感情泛滥。他们也很实际，喜欢权威、保障和地位，所以摩羯座的爱情中，常会不自觉的将这些条件考虑进去。爱情和面包对他们，是同样重要的，而且要在确定无误时，才会坦然面对。
他们相信稳固的婚姻与健全的家庭，是成功的必要条件，也是责任和自我的要求。而他们对自我要求通常很高，所以对别人也是。

星座互动

最欣赏的星座－金牛座
最信任的星座－白羊座
最佳学习对象－巨蟹座
最佳工作搭档－水瓶座
最容易被影响星座－天秤座
100%协调星座－金牛座、处女座
90%协调星座－双鱼座、天蝎座
80%协调星座－摩羯座
对立星座－巨蟹座
同类型（土象）星座－摩羯座、金牛座、处女座
最易掌握的星座－水瓶座、白羊座、狮子座、天蝎座
最需注意的星座－双鱼座、双子座、天秤座、射手座

音乐风格

摩羯座的人天生是忧郁、内省、孤独、怀古而深情的，所以他们的音乐性也倾向于此，乡村音乐、民谣、民歌都容易被他们接受。基本上，他们的格局较小，所以对于古典音乐喜好则偏向编制小的，例如合成乐器、四重奏或属巴洛克时期的作品。


另外，他们有着潜在的爆发力，随着音乐抒发的程度将会使人大吃一惊。

抉择。。。

生命中总有一些不可逃避的抉择。


我在万分个不愿意的情况下也作了一个。


我不知道是前进还是退后。


但将会是我生命中的另一个娟则。



当信任和默契转变成猜疑和振伦时，一切就变得毫无意义了。。



希望时间会寻找出一个答案.

成功的定义是什么。。。

成功的指数又要如何衡量。。。

以财富，还是名誉。。。

如果成功是如此，那在成功的背后，又牺牲了多少人。。。

或许还要把自己的尊严，道德，家人，朋友也配上。。。

这样的成功，最后得到的是什么。。。

是空虚，恐惧还是猜疑。。。

对我而言，只要活得无愧于心，对得起自己和生旁的人就是成功了。。。

财富名誉乃生外物，天堂与地狱为终点，才是衡量成功的指数。。。

你有点燃生命的魔法吗？

在不知不觉中，2007年已过了一大半。。

我丝毫感觉不到快乐，却在痛苦和寂寞中度过每一天。。

多希望时间停顿在这一刻。。

因为我已厌倦了在忙碌中度过的生活。


我周围的人都说我太愚蠢了。

才会让自己陷入困境。

到了最终，伤的最深得却是自己。


我已失去了判断力，无法作出明确的决定。

因为我害怕背后所带来的伤痛。。



人偶因该自私点，生命才会美好些。。

Interesting Test

Saw this in Chris' blog and thought of giving it a try....

The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a person who thinks before acting, intelligent and thorough.
You are affectionate, passionate, expressive, and future-oriented.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.

http://handwriting.feedbucket.com

追求真爱

曾经有一段美好的爱情浮现在你的面前,

你却没有好好得去珍惜她。。。

有些人为了爱情可以放弃一切。。

即使失去朋友，财富，事业甚至家人也不在乎。。

这就是生为人类的最大落点吧!

无论你是平凡的小人物还是成功的企业家,

一旦你遇到了真爱, 你还是会失去理智得。。

因为爱情是无法抵挡得。。。

更何况， 爱一个人是不需要理由得。。

在别人的眼中, 你只不过是个傻子。。

但我总觉敢于追求真爱的人是个勇者。。

期待着......

现在的你在期待着什么?

事实上你是在期待还是等待着奇迹的出现...

与其等待, 为何不去争取呢... 至少胜算已了...


生命中抱着一些些的期待和等待为何不是一件好事...

但努力得去争取或许会更实际...


老天真得爱傻傻的你吗?

常言道, 傻人有傻福...

你也算是个傻人吗?

如果你不是得话, 你就要努力了. 因为老天是不会帮你的...


不过我相信只要你努力,

你是有希望的, Ah Y...

momo 也会认同得...

懂得后悔

人总是在失去后才懂得后悔。。。

但懂得后悔的时候往往都太迟了。。。

珍惜现在你所拥有的一切，不要让生命冲满着忆撼。。。


害怕失败之不过是个借口， 不去尝试肯定没有定数。。。

敢于去尝试不一定会有圆满的结果, 但之少你有去争取过。。。

生命其实很平凡， 何苦搞得那么狼狈。。。

人生短短几十年， 看破红尘度一生。。。

装坚强，太辛苦了

我的眼泪又出来了。。。


忍了这么久还是不可以，

对不起， 让我哭出来好吗。。。

我不想再装坚强了，太辛苦了。。

但我也不想让我身旁宽心我的人担心。。

生命的无耐在于此吗？

我经常看着远方想你。。。。

时间与距离

人家常说；时间能拉近比此的距离。

但我却认为时间已把我俩的距离拉更远。

好想已前的我们。。。。

有说不完的话题。

但现在面对面却哑口无言。

道地我俩之间发生了什么问题。。。

让俩个相爱的人变成了莫生人。

爱的魔法消失了吗？

是我给你的爱不够多还是爱已不在了。

我真的好累了。。

活着真的是一种辛福吗？

我以为我很永敢， 但我错了。

其实我是一个很平凡的人。

好人真得有好报吗？

如果是得话，那为什么老天爷总把我身旁的好人带走。。

老天爷，你是害怕寂寞的人吗？

不要在我的生上开玩笑了， 好吗。。

永别了， 朋友。。。。

站在十字路口的我真的好痛苦。

不知该何去何从。。。

我很想和你在一起，

但我却已背着太多的包袱了。

如果生命可以重来的话，

我原把我的一生逢献给你。。。

我真的好累了。

因为我真的受伤了。。。

How to get Confidence?

Courteous confidence: What you think of yourself is reflected in
the way you treat others. A very effective way to raise your own level of
confidence is by acting positively toward the people around you. Rudeness toward others, whether intentional or not, is a sure sign of a lack of confidence.
When you have no respect or consideration for others, it's difficult
to have much confidence in yourself.

Ironically, one of the worst things you can do for yourself is to
think only of yourself. The more genuine respect, consideration and courtesy you express toward those around you, the more your own confidence will grow.

If someone is rude to you, make every effort to be sincerely pleasant and courteous in return. Just because someone else is allowing rudeness to drain away their own energy, doesn't mean you must do the same.
Have the confidence to be courteous, and the confidence to act with
genuine respect toward others. Your positive attitude and positive
actions will empower you with even more confidence and energy.


-- Ralph Marston

A day of mixed feelings......

Reckless words pierce like a sword,
but the tongue of the wise brings healing

Curse is comin back on mi.....

Suppose to be at Thailand now and yet, sitting at home aimlessly surfing the net....
What the heck! arggggg.....
A Month ago, we have boooked a trip of five to Bangkok for a 5-days get-away.
But the day before, the curse came.... coup in Bangkok....
Due to safety result, we decided to postpone the trip to end of October as the stupid agency does not allow any cancellation.
Since I have already taken leave, I decided to take the time to accompany my wife and son these few days. Feels a little guilty for not spending enough time with them..

My wife has craving for coffee thus the first stop over tampines is at Ya Kun. Both of us had set A. (1 coffee, 2 eggs and 2 slices of butter kaya bread.) After that we went for a baby spree basically. Baby clothes, toys, toddler musical discs, and hell a lot more than my hands can take... Bleeding man... Machan at bangkok's Chatu Chak Market.

At around 3pm, I was getting tired with the shopping; which my wife will never be...
We decided to move on to my in-law's hse as they miss Jayden although its only an interval of 2 days. After a while, I started to get bore and decided to revamp the aquarium in my in-law' house. It was damn polluted with algae and waste from the flop of disastrous subang king. (My father-in-law brought them which I never would.)

Started with full overhaul of the tank and filters. While doin tat, I get my father-in-law to release the fishes in one of the reservior. After hours of cleaning, I went over to a nearby aquarium shop to buy some accessories and plants. As it's not a CO2 equipped tank, available plants are really limited. After much pondering, spend $30 on 7 plants, a replacement fluorescent tube and a wallpaper.....

Finally, after almost 4 hours of mickering, it's completed.

Life of a working class

Today is just like yesterday.
Tomorrow will be just like today.
A new set of problem will arises tomorrow..
But yesterday's problem will still be there.

That's the life of a working class....

friendships.....

After working like a bull over the past 6 years, I finally discovered that life is not all about working... Working will alway play a part in everyone's life; regardless of whether you are born as a pauper or with a silver spoon.

Work enriches our life, experience and knowledge.

In actual fact, I do find work interesting and nourishing but life is far more than it. There are others which are as important. In the past, I always feel that engaging in recreation is a waste of time and is basically a form of distraction to work. However, over the past few months, I realised that friends and family are just as important.

After a long hectic day, friend gatherings can be a diminutive holiday although it's just that a few hours. I felt that friendship are analogous to wine, will only grow better in time.

During my school days I remembered my mum always complaining that I priorities friends over family. I do agree to a cetain extent but I suppose it is basically unsymmetrical. Its a together different FEEEEEEELINGS.....

Treasure your friendship cos once it's gone, it's gone.....

A Company will grow only if the staff are growing

After numerous torturing by the client, finally something concrete came out of it. All thanks to my mentor for the valuable advise. Thanks, Shi Fu...

Last month, I have recuited a project engineer and a project coordinator, bringing my department head count to 6. Projects are coming in and my department is expanding at a modest speed. My strategy plan seems to be going pretty smooth but it's still a distance away from my ultimate goal.. But at least, it started to take shape and is happy with the progress.

Currently, my immediately action is to strengthen my team members and stabilising the structure.

Since I have never been a good motivator thus getting the best out of my fellow colleagues can never be an easy job. I concur that sometimes or rather most of times, I can be a discordant and insensitive person. But that was due to the disappoint that comes along.

??? ............. I wonder if my expectative of my fellow colleagues seems a bit too high or I have been over demanding. But I eager for their own success...

My working Philosophy:
Success always comes with sacrifies.




Its been more than a month since I last blog.... Time really waits for no one.
It seems yesterday that I have just married....

3 more weeks and I will be a daddy liao.... Daddy?
Excited and eagerly awaits for the day to come....

Superman

Some days you wake up and fell like Superman. Some days you wake up and know that you have to be Superman whether you feel like it or not. I had no choice in this case.

I'm working as a project manager in a SME company. Having sandwiched between a highly demanding or rather entrepreneur boss and a team of green horn subordinate kills me off.
I'm just like a big umbrella, always got to be there to shelter them regardless of rain or shine... In fact, I dun think that they are incapable for the job.. just want to go the easier way or simply, not interested...

I am a human being just like you.
Superman only exist in the virtual world.

Level up up up.....

Happen to see this in one of the blogs and hope to share with you guys.......

A man walks into a drug store with his 8 year old son. They happen to walk by the condom display, and the boyasks, "What are these, Dad? To which the man matter-of-factly replies, "Those are called condoms, son. Men use them to have safe sex.""Oh I see," replied the boy pensively. Yes, I've heard of that in health class at school." He looks over the displayand picks up a package of 3 and asks, "Why are there 3 in this package?"The dad replies, "Those are for high school boys, ONE for Friday, ONE for Saturday, and ONE for Sunday." "Cool" says the boy. He notices a 6 pack and asks, "Then who are these for?" "Those are for college men," the dad answers, TWO for Friday, TWO for Saturday, and TWO for Sunday." "WOW!" exclaimed the boy, "then who uses THESE?" he asks, picking up a 12 pack.With a sigh and a tear in his eye, the dad replied, "Those are for married men. ONE for January, ONE for February, ONE for March....."

Quote of the day

"If you can't get someone off your mind maybe they are supposed to be there!"

A new chapter of life....

Finally, IT'S OVER..... I mean my customary lah...
At last got a chance to blog... Trying to juggle between work and marriage is no play. Dammed tiring. But luckily, I have a group of buddies around me. Always there to give me a hand when I need most. Really appreciate you guys.. er not forgetting my dear dear, padi. Dun be mistaken, we used to be one unit away neighbour and through these years, have also becomes a 'brother' of mine.
Marriage is a strange thing. Me and my wife had ROM almost 1 1/2 years liao and been living under one roof since. But the next day after my customary, I feel changes in my life. I started to realised that I have a family liao and my shoulder is weighting down all of a sudden. Oh my god......
But anyway, I believe that this is part and parcel of life... The only different is whether you are ready or not. Well, I would say that, financially, manageable at this moment; physically... YOU WANT TO TRY??? hey hey, i mean household chores leh..... dun side track please.... for goodness sake.

But truely, as for my heart..... Am I really ready? Is my heart setting down yet? Acually, I can't even get a answer to this at this moment.... A person who is a casanova in his school days happens to be the first to marry. What a joke.... Do I really have to bury my casanova sword liao meh....

But well, life still goes on...... And dun expect life to go smooth sailing all the way so...... lets' let nature takes its course Pa!

blissing in disguise

I was supposed to be outstationed this weekend for a important task but..... dammed it, my intl passport is expiring in less than 6 months..... No doubt about it, I was tick off. Shit!!!
But........ Blissing in disguise, I managed to won some money over the mj table in chris' home. It was a long nite till almost 10am.. And first time round, I cycled to chris' home and anyway, it just took me 10 minutes. Can exercise and also save the cab fare.

Can't get enough of my wedding photo.... :)

I'm just waiting for someone to come along and make me happy

Its been a while since I last blog.... getting buzy with work and also my wedding bell is drawing near... Anyway, I just collected my wedding photo and like to share with you guys...

Late night charge

Can anyone tell me why I simply can't sleep even at this weird hour?

Ever since I started working on my current Job, it's almost my daily routine to stare blank (open eyes BIG BIG!) a this time. I'm not complaining as I jolly well understand the pros and cons of it. ( Anyway, as i mention, I enjoy this period as its' the most quiet time of the day.) Due to this weird weird habit, I make it a point to meditate for the day; identifying any gaffe. Whenever I spot a boo-boo act, I will always tell myself not to do it again. (Pls, are you a idiot to do this kind of stupid things?) By the facts of all, history do repeats unfortunately. But at least I can minimize it to the minimum... (I'm trying! I'm trying!) Hoping that one day, HISTORY DON'T REPENT! (Blessing in disguise i suppose...)

The down side of it is that I have to wake up the next morning, reaching my office at 0830hrs.
And for your info, just to sound more convincing, I just got home from work about 2 hours ago... ( Wah, super idol...) or some may say (Wah, STUPID LAH!) Anyway, its' up to you to guage and luckily, I don't want to know.

If not for this job, I dun know what or who I will be now. Still selling fruits and tropical fishes? To be honest, that period of time is the best so far. ( can't say best of my life since i have yet to gone through half of it, i suppose lah hor.) Gone are the worries and deadlines to meet. Bubbles oozing out of the tanks spawning the voices of mother nature, so carefree and smoothening to the ear.... Hundreds and thousands of fishes dancing along with the waves forming a breathtaking musical opera. (Okie, stop dreaming and talking rubbish.... NOW!) The fact is that that with that kind of life, only within my dreams am I able to own a cubbyhole, not even mentioning this laptop I'm on.

Am I living a meaningful life? Am I ripping off my prime youth period, my knowledge and the potential within me. Is it the life I'm striking for or just trying to break away from reality. This are the questions I ask myself at that moment and even till today. Currently, my revitalized life revolves around work and work and work and work and er.... a little bit of sleep. And not to forget blogging of cos.... No regrets at least to this moment b'cos I know that the hardwork I'm putting in are appreciated. (Anyway die die have to work, why not work hard hard HARD! so that you can harvest earlier and retire lah.) Sounds like only pros and no cons leh!

The contradicting part of life is......... To be honest, if i have a choice or rather if I'm not part of this miserable and horrigible (Horrible + Terrible) materialistic world, I would still setter for the former. Fuck care all but ........ only if I strike Toto this friday... Dreamz on............... gd nite.............


I have set long terms as well as short terms goals for myself as a driving force.
A person without goals will only live tomorrow just like today or yesterday.

Insomnia

The night have fallen and the surrounding appears calm and peaceful. I really enjoy this moment of the day and treasures it.
As I was writing this blog, my wife is laying beside me having a game of chess with zhou kong. I was trying to blog by her side hoping to catch some of her sleeping bugs.
Ohm! She just woke up due to my disturbance.... got to stop liao... byz........ n Shhhhhhh....... be quiet pls...........

Home Alone

As I was surfing the net, it started to rain. I felt lonely all of a sudden, and a urge initiates me to blog ...... Wonder if bloggers are a bunch of solitaries . My wife (Yes! I'm married) have went to my in-laws' house for midnight prayer. ( Nineth day of the CNY, dun know call wat in english, sori.) I can't go over as I got to work 2ml while she's on leave. Shiok rite.

Lucky, I hade my slice of joy too. This weekend hectic, man! Played mj for 2 consecutive nights and also went to buddies' hse for CNY gathering. Had not been meeting my old time friends for quite some times but fortunately, the bond is still conspicuous. I would say that it is a fruitful gathering. Full of laughter and joy.

Yesterday, I played with my mj jinx, Mr. Holy man. Damm fucking stress but however dun really wish to elaborate. Anyway, no animosity, just a friendly game.

A little bit not link but just got the urge to put this to my blog.
My Best man, ( you know who you are....if you happen to get your way to here) are tangled with relationship problems. Not again.....
I dun really gets to know the whole picture but just feel sad for him.
Me or rather all of us have said a lot to you these few days but choices are still within your hand.

Hope that you can bare in mind;
Nobody can make you miserable without your permission. No matter what someones say or does, you decide how you will react.


Got to put a dot liao. Time for warcraft.... hee hee.